Teenage Motorcycle Racers (Part 6/8)

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HAYDEN GILLIM: We've had this track for four or five years
and we've been riding on it every day.

FRANKIE GILLIM: The good thing is, now they're all old enough
that they can look over the littler kids.
So I don't have to sit up here and babysit.

They crashed a lot.
Now they crash and it's all funny.
Back then they crashed and it'd be
like oh, I hurt myself.

My granddad owned this 28 acres here.
That used to be his house down there, his barn, raised
cattle, worked in tobacco.
KERRI GILLIM: They started racing when they were about
six and eight and my family all had raced.
So I raced when I was young, my uncle's family races, my
dad raced, so we just always have been around it.

I just want him to have fun.
I try not to think about the whole if he's going
to make it or not.
Because life's too short.
I want him to experience it, and I went him to enjoy his
friends and the whole entire thing.
HAYDEN GILLIM: I crashed at Indy--
it's pretty beat up.
And I got all the trophies from last year that I got, and
the Rookie's Cup.
Canteen that my grandpa gave me that he had
in the Vietnam War.

And then this is a plate that was in my
collarbone last year.
Right after I broke my
collarbone, I won that weekend.
So it was a good and bad weekend.

And that t-shirt was made right after my
little brother died.
It's a picture of three of us on the podium at the Flat
Track Nationals.
Picture of him holding his Youth Dirt
Tracker of the Year trophy.
There's a picture of him and then I'm right there, he's
beating me.
I had to stop wearing it, couldn't put
it through the washer.

KERRI GILLIM: He was the clown, the one that scared
everybody, the one that kept us all laughing.
He was almost 11--
May 5, 2007, he died.
And it was just really a freak accident.
I wasn't there, his dad and Frankie Lee
and Hayden were there.
And he just got into some kind of wobble that just took him
up into a wall and hit the wall.
Just too much force for his body to take, and he died
about 15-20 minutes after he hit.
DANNY WALKER: Hayden was one of the first guys there, and
he knew right away that it was really, really bad.
It's still something they struggle with constantly.
KERRI GILLIM: Two weekends later, he actually went to a
race and I wasn't crazy about it.
Then when I was watching all of them, the only time at that
point through that whole year it seemed like that's where
they were the happiest.
So I was like I can't make them stop.
Five laps and you're coming in.
MALE SPEAKER: [INAUDIBLE] doing a five lap race.
KERRI GILLIM: Five lap race and done.

The more kids you have and the more people you have at your
house, the more likely they'll stay at the house and then you
know what's going on.

HAYDEN GILLIM: Owensboro has a lot of kids that race.
Everybody always comes over to our house, just because we
have a track and our parents don't really care about how
dirty the house gets.

Barbecue here's amazing.
This is Kentucky.
You don't find bad barbecue in Kentucky.

KERRI GILLIM: Once Ethan died, all of his friends at first,
the first few months, stopped coming over because I don't
think they knew where their place was.
And then as we would say you could come over, come over.
And then they came over and would realize it's not creepy,
it's OK to talk about him.

I'll see if you can spell a three-letter word, like sweet.
But it's harder if they weren't here.
Then it would be lonely and Ethan
wouldn't have liked that.

FRANKIE LEE GILLIM: Me and Hayden, we're real
We road race, we don't really race each other.
But flat track, we're in the same classes and stuff.
I get more mad if he beats me than anybody else.
Because it's my brother and we'd be riding home together
and if I say something wrong, he'll be like well, sh, be
quiet, I beat you today and it makes us all mad and stuff.
Because we ride here together, we can push
each other to go faster.

HAYDEN GILLIM: During the summers, it's really hard to
get yourself motivated to work out because of the heat.

The average is 90 degrees, and then the
humidity here is horrible.
It just makes you have to push that much harder with how the
landscape is here.

FRANKIE GILLIM: I don't think any of this year he's actually
been mentally prepared.
It's kind of thrown a curve ball to me to try to figure
out what to say to him.
Try to help improve or try to help him realize that it's
just a learning process and this is
something you have to overcome.
KERRI GILLIM: The first year I think that they worried about
me and Frankie more on how we were taking it, how we were
living, how we were going to survive.
But the second year, I've always heard it's worse on the
kids and it is.
I think this second year's been really hard on them.
DANNY WALKER: I'll never, ever, ever,
get over losing him.
It's weird, it's just such a strong spirit--
you don't come across those that often.
And the 10-year-old that's made such a difference in my
life on how I talk to people and treat people.
It's really a tough thing for the Gillim family, and
everybody that was there.
It's a tough thing to go OK, we're sending him back out.
HAYDEN GILLIM: I'm not scared to die.
As long as I'm going to heaven, I'll just embrace it
and I'll go up there and hang out with my little brother and
all the friends that have died racing.
I'll just go up there and hang out with them, race some